Each day I wake up, have my coffee, get my words done and read.
Some of those days are filled with swapping between writing and doing the outline for the project.
I’ll see the end point of the story, sometimes. But while I’m writing I’ve always had a notebook close by. It’s how I work and it works for me.
There are other days when I just write. I’ll make notes on characters, their issues, what’s going on in their heads, but those days are creating days.
They are the heavy lifting days.
As I’ve grown as a writer I continue to grow outside of the writing desk.
It feels weird to say it but quitting has been at the forefront of my mind lately.
It’s something that when I have those heavy lifting days occurs to me.
They are the work days. The hard ones where the words come slow and the coffee never hits the spot.
But I know I’ll keep writing as surely as I know I’ll continue to have depression issues for the rest of my life. I’m working through those.
It’s the writing and reading that give me peace. It’s the reading that gives me guidance when I have none.
The world comes at me harder than it seems to those outside my head. They oftentimes don’t understand but it does.
I’ll keep writing because I feel it’s the only thing I’m truly good at. When I stop for any length of time, my mind doesn’t work properly.
I know it’s rough and I know I’m getting better and that’s all that matters to me.
I write for me now, though I do throw a few bones to people in my writing.
For the most part I write what scares me, what troubles me.
Writing is difficult but as with anything else, the effort shows the results and I’ve been putting a lot of effort into stories.
I hope you’re having a good day and I’ll talk about something(not sure what) on Wednesday.