I intended to write a project for NaNoWriMo, then I realized there are three novels that need edits. I hit 5k on the NaNo project but it will have to wait until I’ve edited the three novels.
It will take me a while before I’m able to tackle something of long form. I have ideas for more novels, one that I know will be the next one I write.
I wrote two novels this past year, both of them need editing. One of them still needs a first pass.
I have a big fear in doing this: I often worry something won’t get written because I’m editing or writing short form. I’m not sure where this idea comes from. I’ve written about it before.
I have stories to write. and one of my goals for this year is being published. This hasn’t happened. I believe its because I haven’t been editing.
I’ve talked about this editing issue numerous times. I thought it would interfere with my creative process, what I’ve learned is it’s part of my creative process. Without learning how to fix story issues I’d have fifty novels written, none edited, which was where I was headed before making this decision.
For the rest of the year I’ll only be writing short stories, focusing on improving my problem areas, narration, dialogue, and visuals. I’ll be editing the three novels into the new year. The short stories I’m writing will go through an editing process after I feel the novels are in decent shape.
I love creating new stories, but I don’t want to have fifty novels written and none of them edited. Yes, my writing is improving, thanks to the writing group I joined and determination, but I feel its time to step away from writing novels for a while. It’s time edit the work I’ve already done.
I want what any writer wants, I want to see my books published. They won’t get there without improvement.
I’m breaking this record, it keeps skipping and coming back to haunt me. If you’ve read my recent posts, you’ll understand.
Back to work my Wretched.
I follow a lot of various motivators on social media, Gary Vaynerchuk, Lewis Howes, Tom Bilyeu, and others. I follow these people for various reasons. I love Gary’s honesty, Lewis Howes the same. I follow Tom because I love his podcast.
There is something that’s been nagging me about following these motivators. I shouldn’t need them. I should be able to write without having someone tell me to keep going.
But that’s the problem, I don’t. It doesn’t compute that I can’t do this myself. I need that kick in the ass every once in a while.
Today was a good example. Gary posted on Instagram about doing one thing that makes you uncomfortable.
My thing is editing. I feel like the time I spend editing is the time I could be writing. I also feel that I’m doing it wrong. That there is some magical formula to editing. After writing seven novels, I feel like it should get easier to edit, it doesn’t.
The fact that I’ve written seven novels and I’ve only submitted one of them to agents is appalling to me. It didn’t use to be. I thought I’d get better at writing through writing, I was wrong. I get better through editing.
It’s taken me thirteen years to realize this. It shouldn’t have taken this long.
When I finished my first novel, a vampire book that I love, I thought I’ll just keep rewriting. There are 8 drafts of that novel on my hard drive. None of them will ever come out. At the time there was no one, other than my wife to bounce ideas off of. Now that I have a writing group, I feel like I can do this.
Editing is the hardest part of writing. The taking away of pieces I loved in the draft, moving them around and creating a coherent, cohesive story is more important than writing something new.
I hate that it has taken this long to understand this.
Here’s what I’ll be doing to finish, truly finish the last three novels I’ve written: By the end of March 2019 I’ll be editing each novel through my writing group. I’ll post the progress on Delusions of Ink for each project.
What are you doing that makes you uncomfortable? Tell me in the comments. Let us keep each other going.
When you feel life slipping and your goals trying, you have to understand that the world is difficult.
The difficulty of this life is that we have to get through it in any way possible.
Our any way possible can be whatever but our decisions along the road to our goals determines longevity.
I don’t usually think about these decisions but something changed. I’m not sure of the content of the change, but I do know it’s effects.
I’m aware of where my writing is going but there are times I’m unsure. I believe it’s impossible to be completely sure of our course. It’s not something we plan; only what we create.
I’ve written stories which were difficult to write and others I had no idea whether I’d come out the other side intact.
We get to where we need to be by working. There is nothing else.
When I think back about life in the past couple of years, there were little things that kept me going.
From a few replies from authors on Twitter to comments about my writing from my son.
He asks me about what I’m writing. I tell him about a story I finished, what it’s about, and how much fun it was to write.
Last school year, he took a creative writing class. My wife and I thought he’d enjoy it, and he did.
This summer, he gets up and writes when I write in the morning. I’ve restricted him to 500 words a day, but a few times he’s done more than that. I have a story of his I need to go over with him, and I’ve been trying to find time for it.
I’ll do it tomorrow since I won’t be bartending, and I only have my regular WIP word count to get.
There are other little things, but my son enjoying something I love doing, and him doing it with me, that makes me feel accomplished as a dad.
He’s a good kid. He works hard.
If I can help him avoid the issues I had with my writing early on, then I’ve done well.
I could list a lot of things, but this one is most important to me.
When we started our life, we didn’t understand what it was.
As we move through it, we begin to understand it better.
This discovery could leads us to uncovering who we are, what we want, who we love, why we struggle more than some, but lesss than others.
Along the road to discovery, we learn about ourselves. Not like the items I listed above, but truly learn.
We discover our hearts.
What moves us, what makes us cry, what changes us.
This heart attaches itself to our family members, children, partners, and sometimes art.
I found my heart in writing when I was in my teens.
Life intervened, I wasn’t able to write for a multitude of reasons.
Then, three years ago.
Life gave me a gift.
I’m able to write all I want. Play with my kids. Spend time with my wife and still have time to read.
I found my heart when I was allowed to write full time.
I’ve never been published. But when I sit at the keys, I feel like creating worlds is payment enough.
I enjoy writing more than anything I’ve done. It is my calm when the storm comes.
Have you found your heart.
In July of 2015, after we’d moved, I found it difficult to locate employment.
We didn’t plan for this.
After bartending in Las Vegas for 17 years, we thought it would be easy.
It took me until the end of August to find the job I currently have.
I love bartending weddings and events. You see people as they begin their lives together, learn about their family, and often meet some great people.
The other events are mostly corporate parties. They are fun, but the weddings are my favorites.
Going back to the start of this post, we were perhaps naive.
We thought, “Who wouldn’t want to have a Las Vegas bartender?”
Apparently every bar and restaurant I applied for from Salt Lake to North Ogden.
In the beginning, when no one called or those who were interested changed their minds for unknown reasons, I became depressed.
We lived with my mother-in-law in those early months after our move and I felt like a failure.
We never discovered the reason the interested places changed their minds. I gave up caring about it a few months ago.
In hindsight, I thought, ‘I’d failed my family.”
Today, I believe if I had procured one of those jobs, I wouldn’t be able to write full-time. I’d probably be miserable in any of those jobs. A year ago I sent my resumé out again, but I’ll never do it again.
Sure, my wife and I struggle, but I write full-time, and we can pay our bills. We were able to take our kids to Universal Studios this past June.
It was something, with our limited funds I had to plan a year out, but we all had fun.
I have a novel out to agents currently, will send it to more by the end of the week, and I’m starting revisions on another. I plan on submitting that one either in September or if more rewrites are needed January 2019.
I started writing a new novel at the end of June.
I write every day. Sometimes the words come easy, sometimes I struggle, but I get 1,000 words or more a day.
I’ve written seven novels. If we’d have stayed in Las Vegas that number would be stuck at two. If I’d had found a different job, I would have maybe three or four, but not the eight.
Keep working, keep grinding and remember things happen for a reason.