The thought of what fiction is to me and what it means to me has been on my mind this week.
It’s the little spaces in between paragraphs when I’m considering what to write next. The moments when I write something well and amaze my self.
Most of all it’s freedom.
Freedom from distractions. Freedom to find purpose in the lives of the characters I create and the ability to try and scare them.
I used to write to impress people. I thought it would but most people don’t care.
When I write it’s to scare myself and maybe my wife. She’s my first reader and if I can scare both of us, I feel accomplished.
I gave up writing for others. There’s no satisfaction in it. There’s no reward in it. They won’t come to you frightened. Most of them won’t read what you write anyway so what’s the use.
Fiction to me is being myself. Finding purpose within the words and trying to make something memorable.
I may not be published but writing for myself is rewarding as hell.