We disguise who we are from ourselves. We do this to keep others away, keep ourselves happy and to, hopefully, chase the demons we deal with.
The disguise we use often depends upon the nature of the demon. Childhood trauma is a big one, but hiding from things we don’t want others to know, this keeps us happy, but also maintains the disguise.
Keeping up the illusion gets harder as we get older, and creating ways to deal with our demons may lead us down a darker path.
A path filled with pills, bottles and cutting, but writing creates a forum for our demons. It brings them to the forefront of who we are, and more importantly who we strive to be.
Writing, like meditation is our outlet and with that outlet we discover we’re stronger than we believed possible, even if we must discover it through our fiction.
Fiction is the one outlet which we can put a character in a situation and possibly work through the issues we’ve dealt with through them.
The process is difficult, but leads us to a different path, one devoid of pills, bottles and hopefully cutting.
Finding the right story to get through our trauma may be difficult, but keeping a journal of the trauma and story ideas helps.
In the pages of our journals we find an avenue to get through the life we had, have and hopefully will lead us to a better day.
Writing fiction helps us to find ourselves through our characters. It encourages us to get through another day and discover, we are better than we were told, and it helps us to know, just like our characters, things to get better.
They get better because we keep writing. We keep trying and we decide the disguise, though useful, isn’t necessary anymore.
When we write, we discover there are others who’ve needed the help. Who’ve waited for something to help them through their dark paths.
We write because we know there’s that one book which helped us, and we want someone else to feel the same hope we felt.
We lose our disguise because we no longer feel the need to hide from the world. We abandon the disguise, we get through it and we write to help others.