Last week was Sundance and I worked my ass off.
Late shifts and tired mornings caused my writing to falter. I was too tired to work.
My last event was Saturday night and I returned home at 4:30 in the morning. I spent most of that day in bed, as well as a lot of yesterday as well.
One thing I learned from last week is that I need to get in better shape. Doing floor after floor of stairs in one particular venue was rough. My knees paid the price for that event.
There were other things I learned, but most of all I understand I must write, but I also must take care of myself. That goes for mentally and physically.
I haven’t worked out in the last few months because of depression and that’s why I started drinking again. Alcohol is the best thing for me when I want to abandon the world and say fuck it.
It is a long road back from that depression and I apparently worried a few people over it.
Today I’m taking a break for myself, going to the movies and pondering the next phase. But I’m thinking more clearly and more introspective of my work and thought processes.
I’m thinking a lot the last few days about how hard I work and whether its hard enough to achieve my goals.
Whether I publish or not this year is in my hands, and though I have a queries out with agents and short stories out with magazines, I’ll continue working. There is not stop except the peak of one mountain. After that peak, there’s always another mountain to climb.
I will continue to take a break when needed, but today I’m going to think about where life is going and what I’m doing.
Have a good day and I’ll post something tomorrow.