I’ve had thoughts about a great many things this week, as is evident by this week’s output.
The main point that been floating in my brain is about how I’ve distorted the functions within.
How I deal with doubt, crisis, pain, loss, and what those emotions emit to the outside world.
That I have quit drinking isn’t the big thing, but that I have is a godsend to my writing and the interior functions between my ears.
I’m learning to trust myself in a way that I haven’t done before.
I’m trusting the writing process in ways I never have. This is had all led to a new perspective on my drinking.
Life as we know it is filled with all manner of decisions. Some we undertake willingly, others not so much.
But in undertaking these things we try to dull our senses. We do this so we don’t feel the pain.
We take our drugs, our alcohol or what have you and use it as a dulling agent.
But it’s only taking a placebo to the true problem. We choose not to deal with it because it’s too hard.
It’s ourselves that we don’t want to talk to. It’s ourselves that are the problem.
We have one choice, enter the real world or escape as we’ve always done.