The last five months of 2019 I didn’t write as much or read as much as I should’ve.
My focus left me because of a game.
I don’t know why I let it control those last few months, but I did.
It took control of who I wanted to be. What I wanted to accomplish and I became detached from all of those things.
I realized that I had to do better for myself.
Besides my wife and kids, my writing is the most important thing in my life.
It’s changed how I deal with society. It’s caused me to reevaluate my depression. I no longer look at it with a singular moniker of, “depression.”
There are many subtle levels of depression and they take over parts of my writing and how I deal with the day-to-day machinations of it.
In the end we are at the mercy of what we focus on though I finished a novel during those five months–I’ve determined that it’s quite good–I also learned a lot about myself and why the littlest distractions can detour my writing as well as the balance within my brain.
I’m determined to get something out that can be read by everyone as well as to continue posting on here.
I still have queries out with three agents and when I hear something, good or not, I’ll let you know.
Happy writing and enjoy the rest of your week.