I missed posting on Wednesday. There were issues and I had things to deal with.
Life comes at us hard when we’re not expecting it. It will punish us. Make us feel like we’re worthless and keep kicking until we can’t breath.
This punishment can be brought on by our actions, our inactions, or by not paying attention to our own thoughts.
Our own thoughts will beat us worse than 3 rounds in the octagon. It will take what we believe tear it apart and leave us asking how it happened.
Getting through that pain is the hardest thing we will do in our lives.
I’ve dealt with the loss of my brother, my father-in-law, who I felt close to, and the pain my mind inflicted on my felt worse.
Your mind will torture you, call you names, and when you think it’s done, it’s back for another helping of tossing you bullshit to doubt yourself.
That doubt will sink your dreams, your marriage, and any friendships you’ve created.
The only way through is to have a belief in your goals stronger than the bullshit in your head.
That belief will get you past the loss of anything. It will guide you in the darkest night and be the light to lead you.
This week has been one of reevaluation, digging in when I didn’t think I could go deeper, and trusting the process when I wanted to quit.
I really thought about giving up on writing this week. I hate to struggle and I feel like I’m struggling, not with writing but with life. I know it will get better but right now, staring at nearly nine unpublished books, it’s hard to be confident.
I’ll be pushing harder to get things published this summer and I’ll keep you posted but damn, I’m struggling to keep writing and it has nothing to do with the words.
I’m averaging 1500 words a day, reaching g 2700 words or more on some day.
Have to keep going.