There are few things that ruffle my feathers more than trying to figure out my writing.
But hey, that’s where I’m at.
I have a book in the cosmos being queried, another with problems I’m trying to solve and I’m wondering if I’m doing this wrong.
Did I do something wrong in the writing and it’s frying circuits? Is there some magically gibbon or deity I’m not praying to?
I doubt any of that but I also know when it comes time to edit, I get really fucking nervous. I get severe anxiety from editing and revising.
It’s bad enough that right now my hands are shaking and my brain feels like it could explode out of my head. Left to float in the ether for all time.
I know those thoughts are bad and my wife tells me I have to get through them. I can’t keep rewriting the stories. That doesn’t solve the issues with the story it only prolongs those issues and at some point I’ll have to deal with them. But I really don’t want to.
I’m a discovery writer and I’ve written all but 1 of 9 books without a beat sheet or outline. I’m wondering if I may have to deal with that, bite the metaphorical bullet and do an outline for every project.
I see other writers take a few months to do an outline. For me, taking two months away from writing to work on an outline for a story I could be writing freaks me out.
I’m frustrated. I don’t know what to do so I’m throwing this out there even if I look at it a couple of months down the road when I’ve figured this shit out and laugh.
But I honestly feel stuck, frustrated, and bewildered by the lack of traction I’m getting.
I’ve thought about shutting down the blog for a while but it’s felt like an online confessional lately.
I guess I need that.
I’m trying to figure this shit out but damn, right now I don’t know.
I’ve thought about quitting a lot lately. More that I have in a long time.
I feel like it’s not going anywhere and I don’t know why.
I like the jazzed feeling of writing but right now I don’t know what to do.
Anyway, happy Monday. Kick some ass, take some names, and get shit done.
I’m in a job that’s driving me crazy and I feel some of your pain here. I’m thankful my job has an end date coming fast! I wish you the best and confessionals do wonders for our souls… and mental health.
When I quit my regular day job 4 years ago to write, I had a countdown on my calendar. Looking at that every day made me feel good. Now that it’s four years later it’s the best decision I’ve ever made next to marrying my wife.
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Lol two awesome decisions in life! You’re beating many people 😋
Good luck to you 🤗