With each passing day, each rejection letter or rejection form letter, I find myself narrowly continuing to write.
Yesterday, while I sat in the barber’s chair. I listened to my barber talking to a young kid.
At first, the kid said he wanted to be an apprentice.
As the conversation developed, the kid’s view changed.
My barber is a smart dude.
He knows what he’s talking about. I enjoy the conversation in the shop as much as the haircut.
When I was this kid’s age (21) I had no idea what I wanted to do.
It took me until I was in my thirties before I knew I wanted to write full-time. Now I write full time, don’t get paid for it and enjoy my life more than I ever have.
Sure, sometimes we struggle, but the moments when I write something that resonates with my wife, those make this worth it.
I bartend to make ends meet. My wife had a good job that allows me to write full-time.
When we left Las Vegas three years ago, we knew it was time to get out.
I knew I couldn’t do another year in Vegas.
I dealt with severe depression, a job I hated and an environment that wasn’t good for my kids.
Three years on, I’m getting better.
I’ve written four novels in the last three years. I have one being queried another I’m editing and I work on short stories daily.
The way you look at life matters.
Three years ago, we arrived at my mother-in-law’s, our belongings in storage, it took me two months to find a bartending gig.
We hadn’t anticipated that it would be hard for me to find a bartending gig after seventeen years on the Las Vegas strip.
If you follow me on Instagram, you’ve seen the places I work.
For the longest time, I was afraid of getting my work out there. But I have a wife and two kids who need me to keep going.
I need to show my kids that you can do what you want in this life if you work for it.
They need to know that hard work pays off.
The last three years have been difficult, there’s no doubt about that, but without difficulties, life wouldn’t feel as good when we reach our goals.
I’ll continue writing because I like it and it’s one of a few things I’m good at. Bartending and being a dad are some of those things.
Life matters, no matter how hard it gets, life matters.