This topic has come up in my head quite a bit lately and I’m trying to recon with the reasons.
The thought of devotion isn’t only one of religion or spirituality, not even to one’s spouse.
I am devoted to my wife, but I haven’t been devoted to my writing.
Sure I get words on the page, but do they go anywhere? Will anyone eventually read them?
This has been what has been holding me back. I’m devoted to putting words on the page, but not putting those pages in a book.
What is the written word without a book to hold it?
This came up when I watched something the other day.
An author was being interviewed and she said, her first book she did the best she could and published it. There were spelling and grammar errors, but she didn’t care because it was out there.
This has been my blockage, this hasn’t been my devotion.
My devotion has been to write words, not to see them in print. What good is it to write stories that aren’t seen?
I am devoted to improving my writing. I can’t improve without publishing it, no matter the form it takes?
I have written 11 books. Even if they’re shit, why haven’t I published them?
I’m devoted to the act of writing, but live in fear of being published. I have submitted novels, but when those novels come back rejected, I leave them on my hard drive. I don’t do anything else with them.
My devotion has to be two fold. To the writing and to the publishing. I have to want to publish, regardless of the final product. As I’ve said, my wife and I can’t afford an editor. With Covid-19 and my bartending gigs less, we can’t put money into something like that.
What we can do is go over what I’ve written, self-publish it and see where that takes us.
So, I’m going to continue to write stories, but I will write them with a certain collection in mind.
I write horror, it’s what I’m the best at. I will continue to write those stories but now my devotion to them is changed. I will publish this year. I will collect 10-15 stories set with a theme, organize them and publish them.
I have to do that.
I’m devoted to my writing and now to getting things published, no matter what form that takes.