I’ve come to the realization that I work better when I shut the world, and sometimes, people off from me.
It’s not about depression or anything else, it’s about reaching a point where aloneness is conducive for the act of writing and creating.
I never noticed that shutting myself away had this effect.
In what I write–horror–finding a hiding spot in the corner of the room, stopping the world from seeing you, talking to you(except for those who are closest)is possibly the most liberating thing.
I have a small group, my wife and kids being it, and they let me write. I’m not restricted by waiting for someone to text or cal that they’re in town. Or whether they’ll see me if they are.
My family lets me do what I need and it’s reassuring that they have my back., especially my wife.
She’s the on I bounce stories off of. The one I talk to when I need to solve a story issue.
Sometimes it helps, sometimes not. But I can always do that.
There are others who I’ve confused in. Let read my stories but they’re not really interested.
They pat me on the head when I would send them things, but they don’t really want to read.
They have lives of their own but my sharing my writing with them meant something.
It meant I trust you with my heart.
When they toss it away, it hurts.
It’s why I only let my wife read my stories.
I will share things on Reddit or writing sites, but they’ve usually gone through a lot revisions
If I share my writing with you, take as I’m sharing a secret. Don’t dispose of it in your email trash.
Tell me you can’t read it or that you’re too busy for it. I’ll get the hint.
Today I’m writing what scares me. I write it because I have to learn more about myself.
Tomorrow I have queries to send off.
I’ll keep you posted and stay warm.