Searching through the files of our lives, they must look like the deleted technology of a long-lost civilization, long burnt down, crashed and falling to ash.
We watch the reel, enjoying the moments of joy and cringe at the moments of self-realization.
Each of these moments have created who we are, the wrinkles, age and that odd grey color in our hair which we swear wasn’t there yesterday.
These moments are unspoiled by time, life and the things we’ve done since.
Through the years of tears, and every one has a year of tears, no one’s life is perfect.
Staying in a reel, we see watch the life we had, and think about the things yet to come. The loves, loss and the disappointment.
There’s nothing more disconcerting than not being able to see these things. Pulling these files from their roster, some collecting dust, others fresh from the other day, none of them are bad, they just are what they are.
Leading our lives through years, days and hours, each new thing we discover is different, but it may feel the same.
We have the same feelings, but different. The same pain without consequence or the laughter without the joke.
There are some of these which lead to our goals and our strength.
Running through the life which never changes, or appears not to things don’t fall away.
These things add caution and fire to what we want. Going through, we see the difference of who we’ve become, what’s fallen away, what our foundation has become and where the ash has fallen.