What reality is this? What fantasy have we created that makes us feel more important than those around us?
The dawn comes and with it the light, the brightness and the foundations of who we are. Throughout our writing there are two things that come together as a means to halt our writing.
- Our lack of faith in our writing.
- Those who wish to distract us or deride us from the task of writing.
Each of these are part of the Grand Bargain of Writing.
The bargain is that we knowingly accept what we’re getting into, even if we don’t understand what we’re getting into.
We knowingly accept that we may become famous as other writers have done. But, we also take into account that we’re alone in our task of writing.
The solitude of writing is one the things a lot of people either can’t handle or they’re worried about other things going wrong.
For myself, the things I worry about are the ability to multitask all of the things I have going on. From day-job, blog, wife, kids and my fiction writing.
My biggest worry is that something will get lost in balancing act.
My reason for this has a lot to do with childhood and the things I’ve dealt with my entire life concerning abandonment issues, which plays into the worry of losing my wife or kids through the solitary life of a writer.
I risk losing things I care about because I’m a writer and have known that for over twenty years, it just took me a while to take a chance on it, and that my wife supports me and tells me she just wants me to write makes the risk less, but it’s still in the back of my mind every time I sit down.
My day-job isn’t much of worry and honestly if it weren’t for the healthcare I’d quit.
But a lot of day-jobs are like that.
Reality and the life we choose as writers, the solitary life of doing something we love, something that we feel in our soul, is enough for us to say to hell with the Grand Bargain and do it anyway.