There have been times in my writing life when I wanted to stop. I thought, fuck this, I’m done.
It’s happened a lot recently. I’m not sure if it’s because I’m tired of trying so hard and getting nowhere or if I think I’m trying hard but I’m really not.
I have two books out. One is a collection of horror stories, the other a novel. But to say they’ve done well is a lie. They’ve done poorly and I think it’s me. I think it’s because I’m in the horror community, albeit an X or Z-level player, but I’m there. People who follow me didn’t know how to react to Disunion By Force. That’s my fault. I own that.
I don’t understand my disappearance from regular conversations with other writers.
I’m deciding whether to take all of my stories off of their places and shelve them for a while. I’ve talked to my wife about this and she’s cool with it. I have a collection of Travel Horror stories I’ll be putting out this year. I’m working on creating my own LLC for publishing. That will happen later this year before I publish the collection.
I would like to take a year off from my regular day job and write. I also am spending a lot of time playing World of Warcraft. It gives me the mental break I need.
I am considering getting rid of this blog as well. This year is about change and new starts. I’m doing a lot of that in my personal life. I plan to do it with my writing life as well.
I don’t want to quit. I enjoy coming to the page almost every day. The ones I don’t enjoy make the others more difficult.
That’s it for now.
I think these days, everything is marketing. How are you reaching potential readers? If you can figure out some ways to get your work out to people, it might help. Lesson one: social media is a horrible way to find readers (though it does help every now and then).