With Monday’s post, I’ve been thinking about the way I’ve been writing.
- Have I been working hard enough to achieve my goals?
- Have I done everything I need to get published?
- Have I been working on the parts of my writing that need improvement?
To all of those, the answer is no, I haven’t worked hard enough, I haven’t done what I need to do. I haven’t worked on the parts of the craft that I fail at.
There is a big reason for that, laziness and fear.
I’ve been lazy. I’ve watched too much tv, I haven’t stayed up late when I told myself I would. I’ve let myself down
I’ve watched too much tv, I haven’t stayed up late when I told myself I would.
I’ve let myself down.
In the process of letting myself down, I’ve let my family down. I haven’t worked hard enough because I got too comfortable. I was too used to my life the way it was.
I didn’t want to work harder because I was worried I wouldn’t be able to spend time with my kids or my wife.
Along the way to this realization, I forgot to accept who I was. I forgot to take ownership of what I wanted to do and put forth the effort to do it.
I didn’t want to work harder because I was comfortable.
I’ve known for a while that I need to work harder. I’ve looked at my writing and realized I need to improve my craft but I haven’t, not until this past few weeks.
Each of us will hit that point.
We’ll hit the point where we’re looking at ourselves in the mirror and we have to ask that person, what are you doing? Why aren’t you working hard enough? What the hell are you afraid of?
We have to answer those questions honestly if not, we’re truly lying to ourselves.