Inside my head, I see the blackness of my soul. The constant raping of my mind, a father’s breath, lost in the wind. Finding the words, the truth of what I am, of what brings out the dragon, I feel him clawing to come out. I find the scratches upon my chest. Incredible it seems all these things in my mind. Living and chasing the forgotten thing, the dream, and the chasm of my soul. Diverted from what I came to do. Hearing his voice and seeing the words. The condescending, the loss of reality; is this what I am to become? I feel it is not true.
Pouring my soul onto the page, making them live, breath and exist for me. Seeing the truth, hearing it call to me. Asking for it, feeling it. Am I grasping at the straws of fate? Does the feeling of grayness and pain feel like this all the time?
They walk around the world. Small imperfections in their skin. Little dents and divots from when touched by the sun. The ashen are not quite outcasts. Although, their features remind us what we could become. The sunlight is death, we know this from day one. Do not go near sunlight. There are those that by no fault of their own have been touched by the sun. They have streaks of skin that looks as though it may flake off at any moment. There are also those that wear the badge of the Ashen as a testament to time. Most, but not all of them all older. Much older than I am in my 5ooth year, so they are usually millennium or older.
I see them at meetings, some of them wear veils to cover their faces. Some are horribly disfigured. The sun had touched their skin for too long and it was unrepairable. Drinking within an hour will cure the effect of the sun, though most of them tortured by humans that did not know what they were. I have seen what the sun does to the body of my kind and it is horrible.
Fear is the thing that can bring someone to purchase a book, watch a movie or even play a video game. The unknown is a driving force for some. The not knowing, the man standing in the shadows. Is he really changing into a werewolf or is it the light playing tricks on your eyes. Whether people like scary movies, books or video games.
With movies it is a visual scare at the right time orchestrated with the right sound mixing and/or music. In a video game it carries some of the same elements as the movie. Plotting the story and executing it are two different things. There have been excellent horror games(Silent Hill) and not so good(Fear 2). Of course everyone is different and some may have thought Silent Hill boring. The running around the streets, going into buildings and searching for things may have been repetitious. For me and my wife, I would turn the game on, she would get some popcorn and turn the lights off and watch me play.
When it comes to books there are different kinds of books for different fears. There is the demonic -The Exorcist, the things that go bump in the night -Hell House and the creature type -Frankenstein, I am Legend, Pet Semetary and Darker than you think. All of these books are wonderful. Darker than you think is a werewolf book. Anyone that wishes to write anything with werewolves I highly recommend this book. I know that this is a short list and does not cover as many as could be covered. Here is a better list from the Horror Writer’s Association. I am waiting for someone to write a horror novel that has clowns, something more in depth than IT by Stephen King.
Fear is what can drive us to succeed. If our parents never attended college, the fear that we may never attend college could make us try harder. If we consider our parents failures as parents we might be inclined to try harder with our own kids. Fear can also drive us to failure. Telling yourself to put off talking to your boss about that new position, the fear of rejection. Having a child, spouse or parent possibly die is a fear that I have dealt with in the last 8 months. There are many fears from different regions of the world. In some parts Africa the fear that HIV is caused by a witch is prevalent. I did not cover every fear in this post as that would be almost impossible. I apologize for not including everything.
After thinking about this, think what would a vampire fear? What type of creature would a vampire be afraid of? I am not talking about another vampire, or the illusion that a werewolf is stronger than a vampire. I have often found it crazy that a creature that is mostly human, other than the curse bestowed upon it, could be stronger than a creature that is not human.
Ask yourself this question. What type of creature would a vampire fear? That is what I am writing about. This is the essence of my novel.